i was going to write about my first few days.. but i deleted all of it and decided to share a joke with all of you (in light of my good mood)

Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson were going camping. They pitched their tent under the stars and went to sleep. Sometime in the middle of the night Holmes woke Watson up and said: "Watson, look up at the stars and tell me, what do you see?"
Watson replied: "I see millions and millions of stars."

Holmes said: "And what do you deduce from that?"

Watson replied: "Well, if there are millions of stars, and if even a few of those have planets, it's quite likely there are some planets like earth out there. And if there are a few planets like earth out there, there might also be life."

And Holmes said: "Watson, you idiot, it means that somebody stole our tent."

HEY SAM, am i acting humane enough for you yet?



I should be more considerate and contemplate my actions before i post things. i should pay attention more to my true friends and not test the ties that i've made. and if im ever to keep these friends i should help them more often and give more than i recieve. its just that sometimes doing these things are harder said than done. i often find it hard to reply to any situation because i have no experience in them.. i could just stay silent as i know some of you do, but that isnt me. or at least, it shouldnt be. True friends are something you should Care for. None of these things have i been doing even though i really should have. its human nature to put yourself before others, thats how we're built. eventually we learn to overcome these things. Over the past few days my parents spoke to me about school and they've been constantly scolding me over every little thing. for me its unbearable. and right now i have no one to turn to, no one to talk to. sure its great to type on the computer about these things but sometimes it isnt real enough.. venting on a computer usually isnt for me. im a sort of person (at least i think i am) that needs to have a face to face talk with someone. over any matter. and over any sort of break from school i never have the chance to be with my friends because of various situations. so it is in these times that i'm most.. inhumane. And its over these times that i learn who my true friends are.. the ones that stick with me until i've recovered. I havent been showing enough gratitude towards them and i feel bad. now matter how rude i might get or how odd i might be they seem to always be there. it is for these reasons i havent replied to most of your comments on recent journals. I cant decide if i want to. hopefully those that commented will read this journal and will no longer feel the need for a reply.
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In other news im getting my DS back!

at least i think i am.

My last journal ended with, "who the fuck cares about me?"
and as expected, no comments.

which proves that no one does!
they only watch me for my once in a blue moon kick-ass poetry.
everything else about me is more of a dissapointment.
once again i find a way to lower my self confidence..
which apparently doesnt exist according to someone i know.

god i cant wait for school to start..

i find it odd that i have so many people view my page every day.
it SAYS that 15 people looked at my page today
but i find that hard to believe..
i mean honestly, who the fuck cares about me?
hehe..

So as we all know by now i didnt move to california *gasp* and since i purposely failed out of Hyde Park, the best school in the school district >.> i get to go to public school. my father is still utterly dissapointed in me and has been rather speechless and unwilling to talk about the subject in fear of bursting in outrage.. I also have a school uniform that is pretty leniant.. all solid colors, black green red white grey etc.. but no jeans. they have to be denim something or another... so today when i got the information packet it all went down as described above.. so i went up to my room to avoid an akward situation and looked at my wardrobe and compared it to the school uniform.. i have nothing that even comes close to the list.. it specifically says no logo's or designs should be found anywhere on the shirt.
im pretty sure that my father realizes that and is also mad because at this point in time i doubt we can afford a bunch of new pants and plain shirts. Sooo as my plan to drop out of Hyde park is backfiring even more as the days go by.. i cant help but feel.. useless..
that big hammer of disappointment that i see in my dad's eyes everytime anything school related is mentioned is happening more and more often, and to top it all off, i have no one. nothing. i get to start fresh at this school and of course even my old friends are starting to forget.

I hope everyone else has had a good day.