ON SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY!

but until then heres a stupid quiz.


1. I've come to realize that my hair:
Makes me blend in

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
No one listens

3. I've come to realize that I don't want:
Alot of things to happen that eventually will

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
Is a friend

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
Myself

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
People act stupid

(7.)

8. I've come to realize that money:
Doesnt come easily to those who need it,
but for the people that dont need it, easily get it.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I'll probably die

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
Alone

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
A girl that doesnt like me.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I smiled was:
Just yesterday as a matter o fact..

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
Is used more often than i am XD

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I cant wait for the day to end

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
hope i have a dream

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
This quiz and why the hell i'm doing it

17. I've come to realize that my life:
wont end nicely

18. I've come to realize that my favorite drink is:
caffinated soda

19. I've come to realize that today I will have:
accomplished alot, but nothing felt like it mattered..

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
wait for something that will never come

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
be the same

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
drink some tea

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is:
uh no one

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
never really gonna turn out well

(25.)

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend:
i have none X(

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend:
is the only friend i have

28. I've come to realize food is:
tasty.

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
will suck.

30. I've come to realize heartbreak:
Is something that doesnt exist.

31. I've come to realize that the person I like:
Will only flirt, and even then its out of pity.

(32.)

33. I've come to realize that crying:
Doesnt help

34. I've come to realize that death:
doesnt matter

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
i tend to be grouchy

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
i find something to do

37. After answering every question I realize that:
this was a waste of time.

Its like putting a stamp on your face
you're defined by what you do,
who you are,
your gender
the color of your skin
heritage
eye color
the clothes you wear,
hell, you're defined by the clothes you dont wear

its this broken society that we live in, like some sick combination between vanity and pride that fills our heads with things we dont need, and hiding whats really important to us.
Can we really be proud of being.. whatever the hell you want to call it, whether it be american, white, mexican, brown, black, purple, orange, we will never be whole unless we respect the decisions made by our peers. which isnt anywhere close to where we are now..

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this was totally random. the first part was suppose to be some sort of poem but i stopped and moved it here.

the morale of this poem was something like
you are defined by who you are, so then how can they change if you dont change for them..


or something like that..

i didnt post this and i take no credit for it whatsoever.
but, on the other hand i will take credit for falling off my chair in tears after reading this. i also take credit for lying to you just now. i think its funny but nothing more.

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1095. Posted by Justseen Sun Oct 18 1:01pm EDT
NFL is a commercial circus
played inside of huge stadiums filled with
90% white and 10% black spectators constantly
eating burgers, hotdogs, popcorn and drinking pop and beer.
Watching 3.5 hour of football game is not for sissies.
One need to have a big fat ass to sit comfortably.
And there are a lot of those huge fat asses there.


One football team consists of
over 50 players on a team (90% blacks, 10% white).
Most of the coaches are white.
99% of the owners are white.
Even Rush Limbaugh("biggest fan of blacks") was trying to get on bandwagon and co-own a football team.

On a college level where you have 80% white students and 20% blacks attending
school, the ratio on the football field is 80% blacks, 20% white.

Most of the black football players are attending college on scholarships(free ride)
and have "communication" as a major.

Colleges don't care that it is a useless major as long as that have
college stadiums filled up with white people and TV stations ($$$)
watching black athletes slug it out.(remember gladiators in Rome?)


The most important member on a team
is quarterback(the position that requires the most intelligence)
90% of quarterbacks are white.

Game goes as follows: there is 5 seconds action and then break.
(players get tired, need oxygen and commercials need to be seen)

You have players separated on offense and defense.
they cannot play both. They would get tired.

Most teams play once every week (about 20 games per year).
Year has 48 weeks.

As you can see white people love American football - "sport"
where majority of players are blacks.

The fact is that most of white people in USA cannot play footbal(not big and fast enough).

The sport itself is discriminatory.

Americans love football so much but one have to wonder why there are not
2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, ...,local american football leagues in every little town in the USA.
Maybe because americans are sissies and could not handle beeing hit by 300 pound linebacker.
Americans rather sit in their big chairs, watch it on TV, talk about it and talk down soccer.

And maybe american football is after all not a sport
that you go out and play with friends, get broken leg, pelvis, back ...

Even the smallest town in the world(outside of the USA) has a socer team
competing in a local league.

You get 4 people together - you can play soccer.

You get 4 people together in the USA - you can go to sport pub, watch football
and get filled up with chicken legs.


So even that white folks love watching black athletes play football
(NFL is the most popular game in the USA),
most whites do not like having blacks as their neighbor.

The price of the house in a black neighborhood in LA, Detroit, Chicago
might be $15.000 but it is still hard sell.
If that house was in white neighborhood for twice that price
people would push so hard to get it that somebody would get trampled.

*cough* last year's black friday incident at wal-mart anyone? *cough cough*

i haven't done one of these in a while, so lets recap.

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there you go. nothing important has really happened. ive been feeling more depressed recently as i realize how ever confident i seem to be (sarcasm of course) and how useless i am at making a difference in people's lives. unfortunately ive come to accept this. dont worry im not turning "emo" again or any of those pointless labels that everyone likes to use. im still myself. just a little less of it.

I was arguing with myself over nothing important for anyone to know and i started to think about how people change, and how others, no matter how hard they try, always seem to stay the same. for humans, change is a necessary skill in order to survive. Everyday our culture is constantly being shifted depending on our life. for some species this is not always true. for example, a bee's life varies on its job in the nest. but depending on that job will decide what and how it will be doing for the rest of it's life no matter how short it may be. So then Can we really define who we are? can anyone honestly label themselves and be that way for the rest of their lives? No. our thoughts and ideas will never be concrete. and this sort of thing troubles me because ive always thought that my goal.. for the time being is to figure out who i am, but when i start to look at the world around me and realize that i can't have that. So have i been in this constant struggle for nothing? have i put all my effort in search for something that couldnt be done? If that were to be true then what? how could i take this all in? am i just to stare in defeat as once again i have foiled my own plans? Is, the most underused yet forever remembered cliche actually true?

You are your own worst enemy.

what a terrible realization.
but by closely examining everyone, to understand why and how one person were to get a specific label and then test the theory that it is a universally acclaimed knowledge, only to discover that it IS true.. it just.. hurts. down inside that these questions are something we all have to eventually give in to. we all have to admit that these things are true and that we will never have one true self. we will never be the same, and yes, every day IS different. and not just the weather or whats on television but the people and the world around us, its just all in this constant struggle for something that doesnt exist.

We strive for a better place, and when we think we've finally achieved it, one day here the next day gone, there will always be that variable, in a world where everything is perfect we cant help but subject ourselves to want something different. Sure we'll be happy but that will never be enough, and it just turns into this sick cycle that will never be broken. you doubt that now but look at everything, we've gotten so far what else is there? and to what end do we look for?

Humans, we crave chaos. you see it in our literature, our movies, in EVERy creative outlet of the human race shows some sort of chaos, where no order can exist because we choose to make it that way. and dont even get me started on love.

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odd how i get more attention from writing about something everyone relates to
opposed to me writing about my own personal problems..
something to do with how much everyone on here actually cares about me.
ha..
haha.